I am loosing, lost fucking gone, no formalities, not this time, I will cap it off by saying if you don't want to hear profanity or read this, then simply fuck off, yes, direct to the point, am I sorry for that? no, I'm not. I'm sick and tired of saying sorry, I'm sick and tired of having to explain myself, I'm sick and god damned tired of having to justify, this is face value, this is where things are now and I am not gonna sit here and sand bag it anymore to spare feelings, I have said before my blogs are not forced on anyone, I don't go out there and tell anyone to read the damned things, I don't tell anyone that they have to check into them. Basically, the bottom line here, is all I can say about things right now is fuck it all, I am sick of ignorance, I am sick of people, I am sick of fucking drama, I am sick of carrying shit on my shoulders that I cant god damn carry, I am sick of fucking society telling me what to do, I am sick and tired of people judging my character when they don't even fucking know me, I am sick and tired of people asking me why I am not social, get a god damned clue people, I'm not fucking social because I see nothing but ignorant, wigger, whore motherfuckers who are supposed to be my peers. I don't give a shit about your "Homies as you call them" or your N($%ers you call your friends despite the fact your a white trash fucking retard and in no way black person. "And yes I am white damint, so don't go calling me a racist" I fucking hate wiggers. Know your place for fucks sakes. Your in your 20's, Stop acting like your a little retarded 16 year old punk.. Why am I single? How about you start fucking respecting your body? how about you stop dressing like a hooker? how about you stop giving people a filthy look for staring a you when you dress like a little tramp, how about you stop talking about how many dudes you have screwed in the last 3 months, how about you stop treating me like a piece of shit for being an ugly motherfucker that I am according to society? how about you act like a god damn human being?. You want me to keep going on the social aspect, you have gotten this far, so obviously you are interested, read on at your own risk cuz I'm on fire, red hot, fucking fire, Ignorant fuckers who think everyone want's to hear their damn voice, Coming home on busses sitting right near eachother who need to take it upon their own ignorant asses to make sure everyone else can hear them and can't even have a conversation with their own friends, despite the fact their sitting on the other side of the damn bus. But screw anyone else, as long as we are free and able to sit here to yell and scream like little children and make everyone elses bus ride a living hell "Then have the nerve to insist maturity because we are in our 20's?"
Little retards on their cell phones who think everyone wants to hear their conversations by yelling and screaming into their phones as if anyone else is supposed to give a flying fuck. Oh and I just love the D.Jays out there who seem to think that everyone wants to hear their retarded music, how they turn what is supposed to be a personal music system into "lets piss everyone off music" by turning it up as loud as humanly possible, "You might as well take the headphones off the system and set up speakers to it" Meanwhile they got their dirty grimy fucking feet up on the seat in front of them, not giving a fuck that someone else may want to sit in it, not giving a shit about anyone but their own damn selves, 12, 13, to 16 year olds you think? no, people who are in their 20's and are supposed to be adults. this is the kind of shit that plagues and clutters my god forsaken mind. and Oh man could I go on about more, but I dont have an eternity here.. I think I've said enough.. This is me pissed off, if you can't handle it, well, then you can't handle me..I try very hard to take people's thoughts into consideration, but not tonight. Society has done nothing but shit the hell on me, so tonight it's my turn to say my piece. Good night.
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Who I am
Hello, first of all welcome to my blog, I am glad you have found your way here.
The reason I have started this blog is because I have always been fond of writing, I think it is a form of expression that is often underestimated in today's society.
We can argue that vocal communication is the best means, that one must be socially outgoing and unafraid to share feelings face to face, indeed this method has benefits that writing does not, I will not argue or ignore that fact, however, I also believe writing is an equally effective means because of what it can convey that the mouth and words cannot. voice and words are more subject to becoming byproduct of thought not carefully examined. Despite one's best of efforts sometimes words in the moment can come out wrong and be misunderstood by those of whom we wish to speak to.
What's my point you may be asking?
My point is this, I am what society may call a "socially challenged" individual. Quite frankly, I hate the title, I hate the label, I am sick and tired of feeling I have to defend myself against a society that demands from me what I simply cannot give. A society that expects me to change the way the good lord made me, I am sick and tired of having to explain my reasoning and my logistics to people simply because they can't understand them.... This is why I am a writer, because what I cannot explain in the vocal sense, I explain and express here in the words I type, without pressure, without the fear of being judged for what I say, or what I believe, because by visiting this blog, the reader has done so by their own free will, and has not been pressured to do so by any means. So there is one thing said about the kind of person I am, no I don't always speak a lot via the vocal cords, my thoughts have always been my guide, through some of the most difficult times of my life, a lot of times there was nothing I could say to make sense of those times, it was what I had to sit down and really think about, really let flow through my head that in the end brought me back to reality and allowed me to continue making my way through, so to those who say that we must seek others, and talk out what ails us, and that keeping things to ourselves is ineffective, I am sorry but I disagree. It is how we ourselves process things, how we ourselves think things over that determine how we fair in dealing with them and by writing I feel that we are able to get our thoughts out there in a more defined and direct way then the vocal cords ever, ever will. There is so much more I can say on this topic but time is always limited so I leave more for another day, for now this is my take on writing and why I practice it... I will add more to this blog at pretty much random intervals, I have created this blog in response to a desire to write feelings like the ones I shared with you now down when they happen.. I will not write every day I'll tell you that right now! but whenever I feel the need, this is where it will be... Take care everyone, thanks for listening..
The reason I have started this blog is because I have always been fond of writing, I think it is a form of expression that is often underestimated in today's society.
We can argue that vocal communication is the best means, that one must be socially outgoing and unafraid to share feelings face to face, indeed this method has benefits that writing does not, I will not argue or ignore that fact, however, I also believe writing is an equally effective means because of what it can convey that the mouth and words cannot. voice and words are more subject to becoming byproduct of thought not carefully examined. Despite one's best of efforts sometimes words in the moment can come out wrong and be misunderstood by those of whom we wish to speak to.
What's my point you may be asking?
My point is this, I am what society may call a "socially challenged" individual. Quite frankly, I hate the title, I hate the label, I am sick and tired of feeling I have to defend myself against a society that demands from me what I simply cannot give. A society that expects me to change the way the good lord made me, I am sick and tired of having to explain my reasoning and my logistics to people simply because they can't understand them.... This is why I am a writer, because what I cannot explain in the vocal sense, I explain and express here in the words I type, without pressure, without the fear of being judged for what I say, or what I believe, because by visiting this blog, the reader has done so by their own free will, and has not been pressured to do so by any means. So there is one thing said about the kind of person I am, no I don't always speak a lot via the vocal cords, my thoughts have always been my guide, through some of the most difficult times of my life, a lot of times there was nothing I could say to make sense of those times, it was what I had to sit down and really think about, really let flow through my head that in the end brought me back to reality and allowed me to continue making my way through, so to those who say that we must seek others, and talk out what ails us, and that keeping things to ourselves is ineffective, I am sorry but I disagree. It is how we ourselves process things, how we ourselves think things over that determine how we fair in dealing with them and by writing I feel that we are able to get our thoughts out there in a more defined and direct way then the vocal cords ever, ever will. There is so much more I can say on this topic but time is always limited so I leave more for another day, for now this is my take on writing and why I practice it... I will add more to this blog at pretty much random intervals, I have created this blog in response to a desire to write feelings like the ones I shared with you now down when they happen.. I will not write every day I'll tell you that right now! but whenever I feel the need, this is where it will be... Take care everyone, thanks for listening..
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